Okay so I am going to take a deep breath........the only thing that got me really upset was Speed Racer's first post that really set me off because I am not that kind of person......I'm sorry I took my feelings out on everyone else........ I've just been really stressed...but I have been taking what has been said into consideration.
Originally Posted by farmpony84
"All these years I've given you all of this... and you really just used me, never really cared about ME."
Now your side of the story is more like "I'm really happy for you my friend but at the same time my heart is broken because my horse will be even further from me and there is nothing I can do about it. I feel trapped in a situation I can't get out of".
You might be right here because I am VERY happy for them I hate seeing their landlord push them around like they are nothing more than a ball rolling through life......I didn't want/choose for my BO to see me cry but it just kind of happened when she came outside to talk to me when I'm upset it's hard for me to not cry. I told her I was happy but I guess that wasn't really enough to her but I don't know how to show it to her that I am happy. I want to talk to her but I don't know how to start off. I really didn't want to sound like a selfish brat on here because I'm not I even told my BO while I was crying that I wasn't being selfish just kind of confused and worried but HAPPY and EXCITED for them. And I really do consider them my family and I want them to be as happy as they can be and if moving semi-far away is going to do that then so be it. I'll just have to figure everything out and life will just have to be a bit different for a little while.
Again I'm sorry I kind of lost my cool or "flipped" just a lot of things are going on and I'm trying to figure them all out at once.