Yesterday, I was at a games show, from our local association. I watched a girl (16 years old) get thrown when her horse fell at the start of a run ( not barrel racing, but gaming) the horse jumped up, right away, and then the girl jumped up.... and got kicked in the head. She was carted off to a hospital across a ferry from us, and then got transferred to the best trauma hospital in the area, because her skull was fractured. I caught it all on video (don't ask me to post it, I'm not going to) because my middle daughter was in the next lane over, starting her run.
I've watched my youngest daughter get paralyzed from the waist down for several hours, after her pony went over and stepped on her, and yet, this incident, yesterday, was was the most traumatic thing I've ever seen or heard. It kept me up all night, replaying it in my mind, and nothing I tried to think about instead could stop it.
I'm so grateful she's coming home tonight, but still totally horrified, and bawling my eyes out.
I can't stop crying.
My older daughter, when I woke her up at 5 this morning, to tell her that her friend would be ok, just said that she had to ride across the puddle of blood, in the arena, that nobody covered up.
What do I tell my girls? How do I help them? And how do I help myself???