Going to a show?? Not going to a show??? Um, help?!?
So my riding instructor has officially confused the sanity out of me. I've been leasing since the Spring - warm, wonderful springtime when we could actually ride because our rings weren't frozen over - and the entire time through the fall (not summer, all leases are terminated during summer so the barn horses can be used for camp except for special cases) and about two weeks ago as I was exercising my horse with my instructor on the barn's driveway (the ONLY place we can ride now other than the fields but even they are slippery and can be dangerous) she brought up me wanting to show.
I jumped on telling her how much I would love to show this season since I haven't yet shown my horse (description in bio under Hooch) and she told me that as long as I have time to prepare its a total yes for showing off farm. Now, I haven't ridden my horse since then because of weather/ice/scheduling issues with getting out to the barn and he's a fat, dirty mess at the moment.
And she then tells me yesterday when I went out to try and get some of the gross stuff out of his coat that I should go to a show that some other boarders are going to NEXT WEEKEND.
I stuttered some reply about not knowing if I was ready and she laughed it off and told me it would be fine, a learning experience, only do walk-trot ect. ect. and I'm just sitting there looking at her like she's grown a second head.
I haven't PROPERLY ridden my horse in any sort of form since late DECEMBER. And she expects me to:
a) get him clean enough to be show quality
b) hop on him like I've actually PREPARED for this test
c) actually think things aren't going to explode
Side note: This is my FIRST SHOW with my horse off farm. EVER. I've only showed at my barn in little barn tests since I never had an opportunity to show off farm before.
As I said: he's fat, lazy, dirty and in a foul mood because of the weather here. He hasn't been on the bit or in correct form since early fall (lameness issues threw us off a ton) and I know this is a walk-trot show but I'm not ready!!
I love my instructor, really, I do. She's wise beyond her years and a huge role model for me and an amazing horse woman, and I'd like to think we're close (I mean, I hung out at her house last night and I went to Ireland with her and two other girls from my barn and I've talked to her about personalish stuff that I wouldn't normally talk to people about) but I have no idea why she thinks this is a good idea.
At the same time, I really want to show, and I'm worried that if I back out, she's going to think I'm backing out of this season in general. I know if we had a little more time and a place to really work we could be ready but I haven't ridden in a ring with him in over two months! I know how he gets after having time off from work and I know that if I even step one hoof into that ring I'll just embarrass him and myself.
So, that was REALLY long (I'm sorry) but does anybody have any ideas on how to tell my instructor that I just am not ready to show NEXT WEEKEND?