Pics and videos are worth a thousand words and as many tongue-lashings! We often provide the harshest criticisim on ourselves, but, hey, learning is learning, right?
Whether you post the video or not, I would keep it and remember what I didn't like and need to work on. Then ask your supportive hubby to take another video in 6 weeks. See how you feel about that one then.
With no one to judge you, no pressures, no lessons, it's easy to slip into bad habits. I notice it with my downhill skiing. I used to be an instructor and when I go out now, I always ensure I do at least 1/4 of the day paying full attention to what I am doing. For a while I didn't do that, but when I realized how poor my skiing was becoming I developed that routine. Works great and I still have fun without any pressure.
You must have posted just as I was typing. I won't be able to look at the video tonight. My internet is all funky, but regardless of the comments you get, remember that you have the background to improve again to whatever level of skill you want to get back to.
You did it! You posted the video and you're still alive and in one piece. This isn't in the riding critique section, so unless you want a critique, I won't make one. The arena is large and lovely and the horse nicely forward. Thanks for showing us this little slice of your life.
OMG. I totally know what you mean. My guy is a little "off" in his right hind hock (I have the vet coming out next week) and just in case it was a problem to demonstrate that to the vet, I had my trainer make a video of him during our lesson the other day. I watched it, and even though I ought to have been paying 100% attention to how he was moving that quarter, ALL I could pay attention to at first was this: "Holy cr@p...I have been working SO HARD at keeping my hands low and quiet at the trot, and there they are, floating right up to heaven. AND NO!! I spent half the trip around the ring on the WRONG DIAGONAL?!?!?!? HOW????"
I get this.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. None of us are riding in the Olympics. We do the best by our horses that we can, and we're all - every one of us - getting better by the week. Sometimes it's "more" better and sometimes it's "less"...but I'm sure you are doing the best you can by your horse, and this time next year, you will be watching yourself do some move that you can't even *imagine* doing right now, and thinking "OMG How could I be so bad at THAT?!?!" because you'll have forgotten being in a place where you couldn't imagine doing it at all, let alone doing it beautifully.
You just a little slouchy & a tad rusty, but very relaxed. Not horrible at all, very far from it. I love your horse as well! Ok, I will post the vid when I am at home, don't have it here at work, hehe.
I ride a little naughty pony mare now for ca. 4 years... When I started, I was barely able to canter without falling off... For like two or three years I had no training, now it is like a year, I am searching a trainer for us, but almost everybody in here is training the method "pull the mouth, he will get the head down". I don't like this. So we had like 10 trainers, I think I finally got someone right, but she is very arrogant person. Well, never mind, until she works right with the horse and me, I don't really mind. I am very flegmatic, I can overgo these things. But hat she does with my mare. After one lesson with her, my mare gets all her mouth full of slober right after the warmup, she goes very well in walk, and she goes backward like a pro.
I have just now sat on her horse, to feel the feeling of a very responsive horse... It is a 4yo. Gelding, I was the first to ride him apart form the trainer, and I wasnt even able to make a circle with him. Hereacts on a thought, and I am too harsh for him. Luckily he is very patient, so he didnt get me off, but it was visible he is confused, and doesnt know what do I want from him... The most well ridden horse I have ever sat on....
I would make your stirrups longer, for you can then lean your legs more down a have more stability imho.
And do you sometimes ride bareback? It would help you to get your legs stay on the horse and not leaping away and back from its body. But seems to me that you ave a pretty good balance, you don't catch yourself in the reins.