At the end of this month she's leaving the farm because her owner is taking her away.
The past few lessons and practice sessions have all been about putting her on the bit. She's not trained to do it. So essentially I had to teach her. Over and over again, over and over again I practice with her.
I still can't ride a complete 20 m circle with her remaining on the bit. It's true everytime I ride she is getting the concept faster. There is tiny progress.
I read on this forum that the best way to learn dressage is to ride an old retired dressage horse. A horse that's already trained and knows everything, a horse who can teach me, not me teach it. So, I get doubtful and a little upset that I am riding an untrained horse.
Now that she's leaving, I am relieved and hoping to get a more experienced horse. The riding school has profiles of their school horses on the website. Only one of them is described as a dressage horse. But it also states that he is suitable "for more advanced riders".
My instructor at first suggested him and told me I could watch him in other lessons to see what kind of horse he is. She teaches other students on him and she said he likes to "go", and that if I let him, he would break into a canter every chance he gets.
So I thought, okay I'll watch him. The next day, though, my instructor announced that the school will get another QH to replace the one who's leaving, and my instructor said this "nice school horse" will be fine for me.
So once again I am feeling frustrated because in my imagination, I see myself eternally riding a horse who doesn't know anything about being on the bit and me teaching him. Not exactly what I had in mind when I began my lessons!
What do you think? Am I being impatient and unrealistic? Am I being foolish and looking for a shortcut?