I started riding english at 12 (started in dressage then ended up in hunter/jumper) and rode for about 5 years with an instructor. College happened and then the real world of being a young adult, so I ended up not riding for about 6 years and am just getting back into taking lessons. Based on reading other posts, I am happy to know that I am not the only one who lost their confidence! I feel so frustrated that those years of knowledge and ability seem so far gone.
I feel like a newbie, but less resilient because I am over 10 years older than when I started. I can vividly remember lessons I've had in the past and the things I learned over the years but I still feel so unsure of myself...and actually confused about some things that I haven't been before.
I am hoping that with each lesson, my confidence will continue to build and build but right now I feel like there is SO much to relearn and it is overwhelming.
I'm super excited that riding is a part of my life again, but I am finding it very daunting. My goal is to get back to, or further than I was at 18 and ultimately get my own horse but I sometimes get the feeling that it might be unrealistic.
I would greatly appreciate any words of encouragement, advice and just hear some of your experiences.