I've been riding for a couple years every other week, and up until now I've ridden really easy horses. The one horse in particular is just the sweetest, kindest, most easy-going little thing you'll ever meet in your life. She hardly has to be tapped and listens well and will never buck or do anything like that. The worst she'll do is startle slightly, and even then she doesn't dart.
Today, however, my trainer started me on a horse that's more difficult because she thinks I'm ready. It's nothing awful but it kinda has me nervous. She said the horse is notoriously lazy. She said that in order to make her trot I'll have to cluck and squeeze, then kick, then reach back and tap her, but if I tap her she may buck. I don't want to tap her if she's going to buck me. I've never been bucked and I don't particularly want to encourage it but it sounds like I may have to.
Today she was fine. I did hit her once on the shoulder, which annoyed my trainer because she said to reach back, but it got her moving. When I hit her she got jumpy but it was nothing awful. She said she'll normally buck once and be done with it. I don't know if she just rears up or if she'll kick and twist and the whole bit. OH! And she said she'll dart. Like if I lean slightly in a circle or flap my arms around too much she may dart. Like she wouldn't let me circle in the canter because she was afraid the horse would dart. So naturally I was nervous, which affected the whole lesson. I was just off. I kept steering her wrong because I was looking off in the wrong direction, which I NEVER do, and my feet were in too far but I was hesitant to fix them because I didn't want her to dart if I lost my balance. It got better but we didn't even jump and these are things I know how to do.
I think I need to get my confidence up. Any tips? My big problem is leaning and losing my balance, and that's gotten a lot better. Like I'm perfectly fine over jumps; I've never lost my balance. Cantering used to be a problem but now it's a LOT easier. I still do lean though and I think if I had more confidence it would be a lot better. I'm excited for a challange because riding the easy-going horse was almost getting boring but I really don't want the horse to buck or dart off on me.