Nervousness went away.. and then came back. Again.
I had a bad fall from the horse I was training a few months ago that spooked me. I was nervous for a while after that. I began training a new pony and he took off with me, bucking and charging at the fence. I got him under control and didn't even loose a stirrup. I was so proud of myself I figured no horse could get me off.. and I wasn't nervous anymore.
For some reason, a week later, it just came back. I'm nervous again, and I can't get it to stop! The horse I ride is basically bombproof. He does go a little fast when he jumps but he won't go anywhere.. and I know that but it still scares me that he might throw me! Not to mention that my instructor has free choice of which horse to put me on.. she could put me back on a bucking bronc if she wanted to, which definately adds to my nerves. . I need help with my confidence! I can definately stay on, but for some reason I'm still scared. I'm starting to dread riding. =[ WHat can I do? I love it so much but it's getting too scary for me..
I try to just work on the basics, get my confidence up, but she doesn't let me.. =\ There isn't very much of a possibility that I could switch instructors, but is there a way I could work with her teaching style? Get used to it?