Trainers make me nervous...help?
I never used to have this problem...I started taking lessons when I was 7 or 8...and then when I was 10, we were having some financial issues and I had to stop for a while. At age 12, I started taking lessons again, and now I have a problem. I'm now 13.
Trainers make me nervous. I've been to three or four different ones, and its the same thing. I don't know what it is, but I can't focus when I'm in the arena. I can't do anything right. My legs and hands are all over the place.
The other day I went to try out a horse I might buy, and the owner was kind of giving me a mini-lesson, because I was terrified. My heels weren't down, my hands were shaking, and it was a disaster. I really liked the horse, too. So now she thinks I've hardly ever sat on a horse...even though I've been taking lessons for 5 years.
The other thing is, I remember everything. This only happens when I'm under pressure. I wen't to horse camp over the summer (because it was cheaper than buying 10 group lessons) and through the whole week, I was doing worse than the 8 year olds that had never been onb a horse before! But at the end of the week, we rode on the beach, and I did everything perfectly. It was honestly some of the most flawless riding I'd ever done. I actually had fun. The trainer let me and some of the older girls go down the beach and in the water while she stayed with the younger ones, and it was a blast, we galloped down the beach and my seat was awesome and the horses were having so much funn. It was so nicee. Sorry for my rant, but see, my riding just dies under pressure. Does anyone have any suggestions for...calming down or whatever I need to do? Cause if I ever end up showing...this is not going to work out :/