Wanting to go back to English
Currently I ride Western but in my English saddle.
I've found that I'm wanting to go back to English more and more. Don't get me wrong, I like my Western barn and I love the way they treat their horses, but I really miss jumping and English. I'm pretty conflicted about ti because I've grown to be good friends with the people and owners of the Western barn but I feel like I can get farther in English. There are many English barns in my area, and I do like the one I got my half chaps at, but its kind of far away.
I help out with summer camps at my current barn, and I enjoy doing so. I just miss English riding. I feel like I could get farther in English. I enjoy English showing more, as in how it would be, instead of something just like rodeo or Western showing. I think I would enjoy English showing more.
I'm kind of afraid to talk to my parents about it, because she is also good friends with the barn owner at my current barn, and she likes how they do natural horsemanship. I used to do English, but it wasn't the best barn. The one I went to to get my half chaps last week was much better.
I just feel really conflicted right now. I'm kinda thinking of finishing my lesson pack for Western right now and maybe doing a few English lessons. I do sort of feel like I'd be almost betraying my current instructor by switching to English. What should I do?