You are lucky you have someone to train you

I had to leave my previous trainer... He was really into rollkur and wanted me to do this too, but that's another story... I left when I was just cantering. Just knew how to canter on the circle, that's all. Then three months of no riding at all.. And then summer training camp

And I got (I don't know how) to the best group-->and the rest of members wanted to jump... I said, why not, just to try

But that was nothing, about 15 inches or that, and on really big mare, so she didn't even put herself up

But now, with my little Lisa?

She is small pony, and she likes jumping. I can't do it, but when she wants, sometimes I get persuaded

Once I had a friend there and she built us a fence over 80 centimetres height...OMG. I didn't have the strenght do do this, I was really scared, even though Liza had jumped even more... I am a coward

Usually we do with about 30-40 centimetres, maybe 50, but not more... Maybe later, but I really don'T feel safe there...
So, congrats to you, I wouldn't make it