So some of you may know that last year I switched from my background in western to an eventing barn. I absolutely love it and enjoy the change in direction and the challenge, but I'm starting to feel in over my head. Money is hard to come by for me so I take a lesson a week but that's about all I can afford and barely that. I don't own any actual riding clothes other than half chaps so that alone is a little overwhelming thinking of what I need to do.
The bigger issue though is my riding. I feel I have progressed, especially in my thinking. I now understand the goal of how I want to allow my horse to carry himself and ride from back to front but I am still trying to figure out how to do that. In lessons I can pick it up pretty quickly, but on my own I get lost.
Then there's the jumping. I tend to jump about 2'3. I have jumped 2'6 and 2'9 in the past, but my position isn't solid enough for me to be confident over them. I'm not really fond of it over the smaller stuff honestly. I feel secure when I do it but then I go back and look at pictures/video and cringe.
The thing that sparked this though is my move. Apparently the intro classes start at 2'7 down there. Seeing a bunch of 10 year olds jumping their ponies with their eyes closed over fences that haunt my dreams is a little disheartening to say the least.
Obviously I won't bother with showing until I am confident at home, but I thought by now I would at least be able to safely jump the smallest courses available. My trainer seems confident in me as does the girl I half lease from and the person whose horse I will be riding once I move. I can't help but hear all the warnings about unsafe jumping and poor position and feel like I'm just fighting an uphill battle.
This is mostly rant, but if anyone has their own experiences or advice it would be helpful. I've included a few cringe worthy pictures (been posted in critique sections before) just for the heck of it.
*hands out cheesecake for those who read this*
ETA: Just wanted to note that I do see what I need to fix in the pictures (these from early summer) but I just have to figure out how to consistently do it :roll: