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post #11 of 45 Old 07-20-2013, 08:35 PM Thread Starter
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Thanks guys. I guess I just hope I wasn't wrong. I know I was right about a rib being broken because it was VERY obvious, but if was just that maybe it could have been saved. I'm almost certain it's lung was punctured and there was internal bleeding though since blood was coming from its mouth and it was wheezing.

I've never killed anything more than a venomous snake before, but even if I had I think I still would have been traumatized. I'm just that kind of person. I wish I'd had a gun to shoot it rather than having to feel it die, but in my area you have to have a concealed handgun license to carry a gun, and I don't have one. I also wish I'd thought about the Co2 poisoning but it never occurred to me. I'll keep that in mind though, just in case I ever have to do something like that again. I sure hope I don't though...ones enough for me. I think that kitten's image will haunt me forever.

I was shocked that the vets wouldn't help either, but we just don't have good vets in our area IMO :/ I didn't take the cat to them though. Maybe I should have, but I just called them since I was supposed to be on the job (not allowed to leave) for another 3 hours. If one had agreed to help though I would of taken the cat immediately regardless. It didn't deserve to suffer.

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post #12 of 45 Old 07-20-2013, 08:36 PM
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I'd like to thank you for putting the kitten out of its pain. You did the right thing.
I don't think I could have done it hands on like that. We had a downed bat at our house, and I put it in a trash bag, and put it in front of my front tire, and drove over it fast, and then backed up to make sure.

Either way, killing something is not pleasant, but you did the right thing.

Hoping your hand is ok.
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post #13 of 45 Old 07-20-2013, 08:39 PM
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Poor kitten.

YOU did the right thing. The man that knocked it out of the tree did not.
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My hand seems fine. It swelled and bruised a little around the bite (kitten teeth are SHARP) but doesn't hurt much anymore. I was given an injectable antibiotic plus oral since I have a compromised immune system, but they think I'll be fine. I got chewed out for not keeping the body though to test it for rabies. I didn't even think of that.

Its so strange though because after I decided that killing it was what I had to do, its like my mind just shut itself off until I'd already disposed of the body. I guess out of necessity, because I didn't cry or anything and I was super steady while doing it....but as soon as the kitten wasn't suffering anymore its like my mind went 'ok, you can break down now' I pretty much fell apart and flashbacks of seeing the kitten dying came to me. I guess its a good thing...theres no way I could have done that normally.
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post #15 of 45 Old 07-20-2013, 09:10 PM
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That is a very sad story, and I can imagine how disturging it was for you. I hope the person who shook the kitten out of the tree, into the jaws of a waiting hound, has nightmares of guilt. shame on him! the animal is helpless, and that is a very thoughtless and cruel thing to do.

I once had a friend give me an injured baby rabbit, thinking I would know what to do with it, since I am the "animal girl". it had been mauled by a cat, with sme of it's intesting sticking out of the abdomin wall. I thought it was hopeless and decided to put it out of its misery. tried to suffocate it in a plastic bag, but it kept coming back to life, or so it seemed. I was doing a horrible job of it, nad ultimately torturing the baby rabbit. brought it home thinking maybe I could save it, and even thought I'd see if I could put the little loop of intestine back inside, but when my husband saw it he questioned my sanity. When I explained how I had unsuccessfully tried to dispatch it, he said, "give it to me". He went out into the garage and whump! banged it's head against the wall and killed it cleanly. what I should have done, had I not been afriad of the violence of such a killing. I was so , so upset by that, so reading your story made me remember how bad I felt thinking how I allowed that rabbit to suffer needlessly. nothing can change that now, and nothing can change your experience either, but don't feel guiltly. you have nothing to feel guilty aobut, least of all having a sweet and soft human heart. I , personally, find that simply endearing about you.


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Glad your hand is ok, or relatively. The likelihood of the kitten having rabies is slim, so don't worry about that.

Can you talk to the people who were ok with letting the kitten suffer, and let them know that you suffered because of that. If they don't care about the cat, maybe they would about you?
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I would have killed the poor thing too. I used to breed mice, rats and fish. Sometimes you got one or two that just weren't right. No vet will put them down for you, so I had to learn humane methods of euthanasia that I could do myself.

Breaking the neck, cutting the throat, or if they are small enough, smashing them with a brick are all fairly quick.

It will always be hard to do, but don't hesitate. You are more likely to mess up if you do.

I am sorry you had to do that. Culling was one of the reasons I stopped breeding and raising animals.

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post #18 of 45 Old 07-20-2013, 09:54 PM
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I'm not trying to turn this into a gun-control debate, but the thought immediiately came to me upon reading of the kitten's painful drowning plus your bite from it, that ranchers should have guns to take care of suffering animals the quick, painless & inexpensive way.

I'm sure kitty understands now that you saved it from even worse suffering! It was the right thing to do.
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You did the right thing for that poor kitten. It had no one but you to take care of it and help it to not suffer any longer.
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post #20 of 45 Old 07-20-2013, 10:21 PM
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Oh my poor sweet little friend. That woman is evil- she shouldn't have even made that your problem. God love you for being so strong. You are an awesome young woman- I hope you know that.
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