Britt, I've been depressed and I've been on anti-depressants. There definitely is a place for AD's in the world, but at your age I don't think it should be considered so lightly. Seems like your entire family thinks a pill will fix it. It doesn't. All it does is break the chemical cycle to allow you to get your head on straight again. So, I agree with all those that have posted that you need to talk to someone. It may or may not be a psychiatrist, but start with your regular doctor. Depression is serious business, but so is drug reliance which is not the same as addiction. Your emotions are in turmoil, period. That's your age and it sucks, but that's life. Find someone OUTSIDE your family to talk to and get information from. I really don't think your family is in a position to help you through this. They do not sound strong enough. Please don't think that means in any way they are lesser people or anything because I say that. It's just who they are and everyone is different. Accept that emotions go all over the map and learn how to deal with your different emotions/levels. You are looking outside for an answer and I congratulate you for that. Keep going, don't stop here.