Anxiety Attacks, PTSD?
I'm not sure this is the correct area of the forum, but here goes naught.
I've recently been experiencing anxiety attacks while at work. It's been a few years since I've had any, but I am certain it is the same issue- it's not exactly a feeling you forget.
Anyways, after I very unprofessionally and expediently vacated my till during a rush due to a total breakdown, a very lovely coworker sat down to talk with me outside. I'm still not quite sure how she had noticed me leaving but I am glad it was her who did. After I relaxed a bit and got my breathing under control and could handle myself again, I was able to talk to my coworker and tell her what was going on and what spurred it and the like. An aside, I work in a very supportive atmosphere and deep conversation isn't far from the norm.
She listened to what I needed to say at the time then made a suggestion that I'd never considered before- she said what I was describing sounded like PTSD. I probably looked like one of those poor dogs with its head cocked to the side while I mulled that over. I set that consideration aside, pulled myself together after a bit and went to finish my shift.
When my shift was over, I pulled up good ol' Dr. Google and did a bit of reading. That made me realize that there were definitely substantial similarities between what I've been experiencing and what PTSD is defined as.
Long story short, I want to get this looked in to.
With that, I encounter a bit of an issue though; my preferred counselor (who I saw for years) has moved away as of about a year ago (though she and I are still in touch). The counselor that I started seeing after my former moved away has since lost my trust entirely since rudely not showing to a meeting then subsequently ignoring all communications, and offering no explanation. She had pretty much already written me off as autonomous regardless, but now I don't know where to turn.
I'm also feeling very isolated right now. Truthfully, all my close friends have moved away, and I'm not wanting to bother forging new friendships knowing that I myself am moving in a couple months. That said, knowing that I'm leaving isn't easing my feelings, just stagnating them.
I suppose I'm just looking for suggestions on where to turn to get myself figured out. I appreciate anyone who read my whole somber rant!
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