I'm 22 and was diagnosed with social & general anxiety when I was 14. I've never really had friends outside the barn. I cannot stand a crowded place - sometimes 2 is a crowd, others 20 is a crowd. In high school my anxiety got the best of me and I wound up skipping quite a bit of school before I went on to home schooling, which worked wonders for my anxiety. To this day I get nervous for NO reason even around people I see all the time. It takes a LOT for me to actually be 100% myself around them. I can think of maybe 2 people I am myself with - my boyfriend and best friend. My family, I am myself but in a different way, it's something I can't even explain how or why. I think I am also just an extremely awkward person. Like, I can meet new people just fine and start up any old conversation, but after that I am either really quiet and stand there saying and doing absolutely nothing, or I come off as really nasty and rude without meaning to at all, like over-confident almost. Sometimes my mouth has no filter, and I feel like that stems from being so anxious around people that I just don't know how to interact without coming off as a mega-cow.
Currently I take nothing for my anxiety, and haven't since I was first diagnosed with it. I took something very briefly but didn't find it was helping so haven't tried anything in a good 8 years. After high school was over I slowly learned how to deal with my anxiety, and in turn just became over-confident in some ways. The only things I have found to truly help is riding (I used to skip school just to ride), and gaming. I play WoW a lot. Like way too much. But it calms me down so there can't be much harm in that
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