Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: west palm beach, fl
good point redpony... it didnt even cross my mind how the symptoms are so alike, I was just trying to give an example, lol. And xanax is a suppressant prescribed for anxiety. I take mine once a day in the morning, and I can take one if I feel a panic attack coming on or know im going to be in a situation im going to potentially freak about.
Less than helpful comments don't bother me, my family is full of less than helpful sentiments and im sure im not the only one who has to brush em off daily. I agree completely that theres no perfect science to this stuff, theres no right or wrong or real answer to any of it. But if calling it something and counseling or therapy or what have you helps, then why fight the positive results. Its when those comments are meant to accuse, or demean or illegitimatize that gets me worked up.
Its ok to not understand, or not believe, or have a different opinion. Its not ok to tell me theres nothing wrong with me, when I can't keep my food down or stop my hands shaking long enough to light my cigarette. Or to say that its not true because its not diagnosed, etc. Those kind of thought processes hurt the mental health community more than they help.
I didnt mention my cutting to anybody other than my lovers for 6 years. The first time my mother saw a scar on my body, she drug me by my hair to the shower and told me to scrub it off. She said she hoped it hurt enough I wouldnt do it anymore. I continued for 6 years, and never said a word because I couldnt bear to have her angry at me. I couldnt bear to have somebody tell me I had a problem, on top of all the bad things I felt and couldnt control. That single experience with the type of atittudes im talking about shaped my entire life, and not for the better. I didnt get the help in needed because I felt I couldnt say anything because it made the people around me so angry. My mother saw my scars now, now that I have over 300 of them from my hip, to my thighs, to my wrists, ankles and genitals. Some days she can't even look at me.
Whos to say whether it would have been prevented if she had taken different action, had I said something to somebody, etc. but its just one example where the negative connotation towards mental/emotional issues can lead to even worse consequences.
And, I don't mind shareing this online, I don't care who sees it. I am what I am, and I own it. You don't have to be supportive, just don't be mean.