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        03-07-2013, 02:03 PM
      #41
    Yearling
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by AnalisaParalyzer    
    believe it or not purple, you and I have had much of the same experiences. I don't have pictures, and I threw away my hospital bands and my paperwork is buried in a "company" file, but I too have been through the system. I too have scars and memories etched throughout my body. At first I was scared of not dying from an overdose, so I cut my femoral in my truck one night. My Best friend intervened so I moved on. Alcohol, exstacy, molly, acid, I dove into it all. Almost kicked it on a binger one night, except my bf at the time recognized the symptoms of an OD and off I went. I had counted on him being to messed up, but he skipped a pill to keep an eye on me.

    I can see where you would have taken some offense to people not being diagnosed and claiming anyway, if that's why you posted your first comment. For people like us, the system and the meds have so much control. But they need the help we needed, just not as extreme, and they have every right to be here if they think they may need it.


    How are you by the way? Hows it been since then?

    How are you by the way?
    *hugs* the only reason I had my medical records is because before I moved out of state I wanted them. That was the facility I was at the most, but there's still tons of other papers on my mental health at other facilities as well. I kept all my bands etc. so one day I could look back as I do now and know how far I've come. Like you, my fiance at the time could read me like a book and knew exactly what I did and when I did it. When he got a job I felt so relieved because I could do it and be alone and finally get it done. I ate bottle after bottle after bottle of pills. About 1.5 hours in he comes home early from work. Days later I woke up back in the hospital. Ugh, I was devastated. This was from 2009-2011 when I struggled with killing myself everyday. Was hospitalized most of those years. It's been almost 2 years and I haven't cut myself since, I haven't OD, and I don't want to die. The hospital time really helped me become stable and get back on my feet. I still struggle with things like depression and anxiety and low self worth, but I have learned to cope with them better (drugs were making it worse). How have you been lately?
         
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        03-07-2013, 02:16 PM
      #42
    Yearling
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by AnalisaParalyzer    
    believe it or not purple, you and I have had much of the same experiences. I don't have pictures, and I threw away my hospital bands and my paperwork is buried in a "company" file, but I too have been through the system. I too have scars and memories etched throughout my body. At first I was scared of not dying from an overdose, so I cut my femoral in my truck one night. My Best friend intervened so I moved on. Alcohol, exstacy, molly, acid, I dove into it all. Almost kicked it on a binger one night, except my bf at the time recognized the symptoms of an OD and off I went. I had counted on him being to messed up, but he skipped a pill to keep an eye on me.

    I can see where you would have taken some offense to people not being diagnosed and claiming anyway, if that's why you posted your first comment. For people like us, the system and the meds have so much control. But they need the help we needed, just not as extreme, and they have every right to be here if they think they may need it.


    How are you by the way? Hows it been since then?

    How are you by the way?
    Noticed you're in FL. I was born and raised in FL. And all this happened while I was in FL. They don't mess around with mental health there that's for sure!
         
        03-07-2013, 03:10 PM
      #43
    Yearling
    Its been up and down, but I got off the drugs in 2010, and that helped me get on track. After my x took me to the hospital, he bought annie, and she became my night and day, instead of the "bad things". My x eventually had a complete meltdown (acid, still a god guy though) drive his mercedes into his pool and ended up in a Colorado rehab. I stopped cutting for months, and was ok. Then in 2011-2012 I was off my meds for a bit, and living with a woman who is pure evil in a can, and I relapsed. That was about a year ago, and im glad to say that since that incident, I got back on my weekly therapy cycle, back on my meds, and dove into starting my company, Paralyzing Equine Inc, a conjunction company with John Crosby Enterprises. Lessons, training, and starting. Showing soon to come. (sponsors are freaking wonderful).

    I've found that throing myself into my work helps keep me from sliding back down, but if I get too much going at once, the anxiety comes crashing down and its really hard not to crumble under it. I still struggle sometimes. This winter has been kind however :)

    Proud to be talking to ya purple :) i'm glad you've stuck around.

    Lioness, I so know what you mean. If get all sick inside when I have to give a superior of any kind bad news, even if its not my fault.

    And cruiser, what helps you best with the not touching thing? I've become more and more aware of my personal space and whats an invasion recently, and I've found it difficult to relax myself in a situation where hand shaking and acquaintance hugs shouldnt be much of a problem...
         
        03-08-2013, 10:41 PM
      #44
    Weanling
    I have social anxiety disorder (still very severe) and panic disorder (better controlled; havent had a full attack in a while).
    My social anxiety is what really holds me back. People just outright scare me most of the time. Im not good at small talk and I get extremely nervous if the conversation drops off and I don't know what else to say. I have a hard time making and keeping friends because my nervousness gets misinterpreted as being weird or standoffish. Im constantly second guessing myself during concersations and worrying that I said the wrong thing. I've really worked hard to push myself to be more outgoing and put myself out there, but its rough; some days interacting with people at work is just exhausting.
    Glad to connect with other folks with some of my same issues. Makes me feel less isolated :)
         
        03-08-2013, 11:26 PM
      #45
    Yearling
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by AnalisaParalyzer    
    its been up and down, but I got off the drugs in 2010, and that helped me get on track. After my x took me to the hospital, he bought annie, and she became my night and day, instead of the "bad things". My x eventually had a complete meltdown (acid, still a god guy though) drive his mercedes into his pool and ended up in a Colorado rehab. I stopped cutting for months, and was ok. Then in 2011-2012 I was off my meds for a bit, and living with a woman who is pure evil in a can, and I relapsed. That was about a year ago, and im glad to say that since that incident, I got back on my weekly therapy cycle, back on my meds, and dove into starting my company, Paralyzing Equine Inc, a conjunction company with John Crosby Enterprises. Lessons, training, and starting. Showing soon to come. (sponsors are freaking wonderful).

    I've found that throing myself into my work helps keep me from sliding back down, but if I get too much going at once, the anxiety comes crashing down and its really hard not to crumble under it. I still struggle sometimes. This winter has been kind however :)

    Proud to be talking to ya purple :) i'm glad you've stuck around.

    Lioness, I so know what you mean. If get all sick inside when I have to give a superior of any kind bad news, even if its not my fault.

    And cruiser, what helps you best with the not touching thing? I've become more and more aware of my personal space and whats an invasion recently, and I've found it difficult to relax myself in a situation where hand shaking and acquaintance hugs shouldnt be much of a problem...
    Good to hear you're back on track. It is hard to get back on track, but so easy to get off it. I've been going at it alone this past 1.5 years without therapists, psychiatrists, and meds. When I moved I weaned off all of them and said goodbye to my therapists and such. I have been doing OK off of them, but def. Noticed my outbursts and irritability being a major problem in my daily life. Working keeps me going strong also. When I have a day off and nothing to do, I get really really depressed. I have to stay busy or that's the end of me
         
        03-09-2013, 12:38 AM
      #46
    Foal
    I am 55 and have had social anxiety since I was early teens. Also deal with Panic attacks from time to time. I have a wonderful counselor that has helped me to cope with the feelings that trigger me. I was physically & sexually abused as a child and that seems to have been the trigger for my issues. I would have a startle reflex if some one touched me even if I watched them reach out to me. I couldn't stand to be touched. He got me past the startle reflex with counseling and cognitive behavior therapy. One GP wanted me to go one a depression drug, but I decided to try the therapy first. Thankfully it helped a great deal. The whole heart racing, cold sweat, I'm going to die feelings are under control, not gone, but under control.

    You can survive living like this. I didn't get help until about 10 years ago. I really like this way of life alot better
         
        03-09-2013, 02:40 AM
      #47
    Yearling
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by dommycob    
    what's xanax?
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    It's anti anxiety medication. I have panic attacks, but not what you would typically think of as a panic attack. Every couple of years, starting at about 16 years old, I would have breathing episodes that would last weeks, where I couldn't catch a deep breath. I would yawn a lot as a result of not being able to take a deep breath and by the end of the day was extremely exhausted and just needed to pass out. I finally had a conversation with my dad about it, who told me it was panic attacks, he had been diagnosed and that was exactly what he experienced. I waited a long time to see a doctor about it. As I got older, and three kids later, the attacks came more frequently. I was diagnosed with panic attacks/anxiety and given a perscription for xanax.
         
        03-09-2013, 05:50 AM
      #48
    Weanling
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by Whisper22    
    It's anti anxiety medication. I have panic attacks, but not what you would typically think of as a panic attack. Every couple of years, starting at about 16 years old, I would have breathing episodes that would last weeks, where I couldn't catch a deep breath. I would yawn a lot as a result of not being able to take a deep breath and by the end of the day was extremely exhausted and just needed to pass out. I finally had a conversation with my dad about it, who told me it was panic attacks, he had been diagnosed and that was exactly what he experienced. I waited a long time to see a doctor about it. As I got older, and three kids later, the attacks came more frequently. I was diagnosed with panic attacks/anxiety and given a perscription for xanax.
    This is rather the same to my what I call 'mini panic attacks' where I don't get any syptoms of a full one but I feel like I can't take a deep breath and so I yawn constantly. Mine only lasts around 5-10 unless I have a full one, I've never heard of anyone having a 'mini panic attack' for weeks :O!
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        03-09-2013, 06:08 AM
      #49
    Trained
    May I applaud everyone who has shared their stories and struggles.
    I am a mental health professional. Each person who is posting is brave and showing great courage. I too have had issues with anxiety due to a sexual assualt. You can read about it in the saloon section under survirours of rape thread.
    There is hope and medication along with cognitive behavioral therapy that can help ease the grip these disorders have on your life.
    Who ever started this thread did a wonderful thing.
    Please seek professioanal help and please keep talking about your anxieity. There are many local groups that address anxiety. Most are low cost or free.
    The more you aknowledge it the less hold it has over your life.
    Remember to confront these disorders you need to be ready to explore any and all forms of treatment. They will not be easy and they will take time. Just because you have posted and all the others who may post in the future remember you are not alone and you are not without resoursces. Your life and happiness are at risk if you do not take the necessary steps to end your pain.
    Life should be enjoyed not feared. PM me if you want. Remember , It would be unethical for me to give you in depth advice over the internet or if you are under the care of a mental health professional Shalom Donald
         
        03-11-2013, 01:10 PM
      #50
    Yearling
    Okay, need a little help here.

    Significant other said "get on meds, you need help, etc"
    Now, I've got the meds, I've got the help, I get
    "we're not speaking, your on drugs."
    "is that what your therapist said? Go cry to her"
    "quit trying to be all high and mighty, your therapist isnt here"

    I got on the meds and in the program to help our relationship, to help me see straight and communicate without fear or fits of rage, be them self harming or otherwise.

    These comments and thought processes hurt. Im not on drugs, I take whats prescribed. And he told me tog et the prescription. Its not high and mighty, its calm and quiet. Just because im not yelling doesnt mean im not trying. The go cry to your therapist, that's just mean.


    I know a lot of people on here have advised me to get rid of this "baggage". But my question here,

    What do you guys do when somebody uses your problems to hurt you?
         

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