...but I have discovered that unless I get another job [on top of what I already do I mean], I can't afford to move my gelding to somewhere I can get regular lessons, and I certainly can't afford to show in 2013. I might be able to manage it if I sell my filly but I really don't want to have to do that.
I've fiddled with the budget and played around with reducing my costs as much as possible but worked out that for essentials I fork out, on average, $239/week [I don't pay rent, and I currently don't pay board for either horse, so that's horse feed, my share of food/bills, and payments on my emergency credit card because somebody decided to rack up nearly $2000 worth of vet fees and counting]. I get in approximately $320/week on a good week, obviously less if I work fewer hours [read, am more efficient - unfortunately I get paid by the hour not by the work done!], and I don't really want to be working any tighter than that because occasionally the groceries are more expensive and I still have to pay my share of it!
The trouble is, if I move Monty, the absolute minimum I can get away with [and this is every single cent budgeted to something!] is $407/week, not including show entry and travel costs. Bearing in mind I don't pay rent!! When I eventually move out, I expect that number to rise to over $800/week... which is a fairly reasonable annual wage and not something readily given to a high-school dropout.
I can't afford to go back to study if I'm not earning more, I can't work more if I go back to study [my pay in this job is pathetic compared to what I would be getting elsewhere, but I love the job, so I'm staying], I can't progress with my life's journey if I don't get a better paying job.
I hate my budget. -glares at bank account-
Now... I will most certainly be getting a second [morning or night] job, but I cannot survive in customer-oriented positions - yes I have tried - so I have to find somewhere that'll hire a person with no high school diploma [I do have an equivalent qualification], be totally cool with me not being able to work weekends, and be flexible about hours [if it's a night position especially as I don't always finish at a consistent time]... and that won't make me deal with too many people. Not going to be easy.
Ok now that's out of the way off I go to figure out a solution.