Right now, I go to community college near my home. I'm onto my second year, but I plan on moving out after this year and going to university. I was hoping some HF people could give their input on the situation.
1. My major. I am majoring in journalism/communications/broadcast journalism and want a college with a good program. It doesn't have to be the best program in the nation, but a respectable one.
2. Location. Okay, this is a hard one. Ideally, I'd like to go somewhere with lots of sunshine and warm weather year-round. HOWEVER, I do have a dilemma. I struggle with anxiety, especially a phobia, and it makes it very hard for me to be away from home. This is why I did not go to a private college two years ago. I was all set and ready to go, and I got on campus and just panicked. Completely broke down, could not stop crying, blind panic. A part of me kicks myself for not being stronger and staying, but a part of me also knows that things did turn out better for me by being at home. It allowed me some time to grow, to save money, to keep my horse at home and be with him, and to continue a job I love doing. My grandpa died this past October, and I was able to be home and work through it and attend the funeral. I know I NEED to get away from home to grow, but I just don't know how to do it and be successful at it. I wonder if going to school closer, like an hour or two away, would be better because if something did go completely wrong, I could go home. But my argument to being farther away is that I can't go home and will learn to handle things by myself. And I can't "escape" as easily as I did the last time I tried to go off to school. PS - This is so embarrassing to explain. I still have really raw feelings from it, so I hope you don't criticize me too much for being a baby. :/
3. Size. I would like to go somewhere where I can meet lots of people and there are plenty of things to do, but I don't want to be in a major, major city. I don't think city life is for me at all, but I could do a suburb. But I don't want to be out in the boonies like I am now.
4. Horses. Some how, some way, I HAVE to have my horse fix where ever I am. I'd love to go to school where's there's an equestrian team, but I'd be satisfied with a barn nearby that has hunter/jumper and eventing stuff. Also, my horse is an issue. I am working with him right now to be a hunter or maybe an eventer, but we're not getting much of chance due to location. I would LOVE to be able to bring him along to school with me - he's the love of my life. But would it be silly of me to think that I could bring him along? And if I couldn't, I wouldn't want to sell him. And there's no one around here to lease him to as I'd want him to go somewhere where he is ridden as a hunter or eventer or jumper or even dressage. But I want him to stay in training. I want to see how far he can go.
5. Expenses. I am very fortunate to have parents that believe in paying for my education. And I don't want to make it too hard on them. With my degree, I only have 2 years left, but I don't want to be paying oodles of money for those two years. Any scholarships you can suggest? And what about colleges that have great financial aid things to offset high costs or good colleges with lower tuition?
6. Housing. It's pretty important that I have my own apartment or space. I'm not a "roommate" sort of person, and I tend to not have as much anxiety when I'm alone because I don't worry about what the other person will think or do about my panicky-ness.
Your suggestions, please?