Okay I need a slap of something to my face.
I am obsessing over the fact I put so much effort and love and money into someone that just didn't even try with me.
I know everyone has their baggage or their problems, but with him he wouldn't talk to me about them, or talk with me about his family. I've known him for over 3 years, so that should have been a sign to me that it wasn't going to work.
He was jealous of my relationship with Sky, angry with me for not doing things his way.. always thought I was snappy or mad at him if I wasn't bursting from the seams happy.
It wasn't a healthy relationship but I'm finding that getting over it is hard. For the record, I ended it but I guess hoped that we could still be friends. He just deleted me from FB without so much as a word, so I guess not.
Please anyone tell me I'm an idiot and need to think about something else. Please help me get through these awful feelings! It'd help if I had Sky but I can't help feeling so angry and hurt.