Family rant, need to get some things off my chest
I will start bt saying I am the black sheep of the family so to say. I was the one that was caught smoking weed in high school, I made crappy grades, skipped school. I got married to an unapproved man, blah blah.
I've always felt like the loner in the family. My closest family, the grandparents on moms side live 45 minutes away, while my dad lives over an hour. I was always ok with the occasional visit, and anytime I ever needed anything monentary growing up, I could always call someone.
I quit college twice and have a decent job but its nothing to brag about. I dropped out of high school, but got my GED. My sister on the other hand, went to college straight out of high school and is now a lawyer. My brother isn't the most mature person in the world, but he makes enough moneyin his job to support his family.
This is where my rant starts.
My grandfather's 80th birthday party is Saturday. My handgun permit carry class is also Saturday. I had to make a choice, and I chose the permit class. It's the only one I could get into within the next few months. At the time I paid for it, I didn't realize it was on the same day as the party. I text my grandmother today and told her I coukdnt make it, that we would come visit another day.
I get a text from my step mother pretty much ringing me out for missing the party. When I told her I was sorry, but I had to do what I felt I needed to do, she said that they wernt going to live forever, and that I should be ashamed of myself, and that I better not get mad because the truth hurts.
I regurlary drive long distances to visit my grandparents, and my father, so that they can visit with my daughter and have a relationship. She will be6 soon, and I can count on one FINGER the times that they have made the drive to come to our house. My grandparents have never come to visit.
I am tired of being expected to always use my money and my time to be the only one who makes an effort.
My sister is pregnant now, and I truly feel that when that baby is born, that me and mine will drop off the face of the earth. That's the grandchd of the lawyer who only lives ten minutes away.
Are you wondering why I hanvnt mentioned my mother? Yeah I don't currently know where she is. It's not like she raised me anyways. She layed in bed doped up on pills the entire time I was growing up, and when she's clean for a month, she thinks she deserves the mom of the year away.
I can't help but wonder if my life would have been a tad bit easier if I had had a " real" family. Not been cooking dinner and taking care of my brother when I was 10. What if I would have had someone to make me go to school every morning? Made sure I didn't come home drunk every night after school, or even every morning at 3 am on a school night? Made sure my brother didn't get into the pills and beat the crap out me because I told him to pick his spilt chips out of tge floor. What if I would have had a mother to talk to? Would I still be pissed off at the world and not care about what my family thinks?
I care about my family, don't get me wrong, but I could care less about f they like my decisions or not. I have my fiance and my daughter, and to me that's all I need of they are going to get mad at me because I don't do what they think I should do.
I just had to let that go, it was frustrating me toa breaking point.
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