I guess just what the title says... Lately I have just been feeling so down. I haven't been riding since I sold chrome and that definitely adds to it. I finally got a job that I mostly enjoy but I know I will need to move on to something better soon as it just isn't cutting it. I haven't been able to save for my move to texas like I had hoped since everything bad that could happen, has. We got back my boyfriends old dog, $140 in nueter and shots, my care needs power steering pump, control arm and a few other things and my boyfriend can not keep track of what bills need to be paid..... He relies on me when I make the least and give him money whenever I can. His truck needs almsot a full front end, figure out why it wont pass smog and get insurance on it. We also have a cat who needs to be fixed and need to build a yard for the now 2 dogs since we have till next july till our lease is up.
I'm only 18 yet I feel so stressed and stretched.. I should be going to school right now but I can't even afford that because the only school that offers the classes I want for vet tech is a 2 hour drive away and my car wouldn't make it right now :[.
I just feel like everytime I start to get ahead and feel like we are moving forward towards our goals we got stopped. I duno its just really making me feel so down, I just want to move already this town has nothing left to offer. My boyfriend just can not seem to step it up he only works till 2 every day and could very well get a second job, hell I've even been looking for a second job but he will not do it. He wont do stuff with me even a short walk with the dogs is a hassle. He would much rather gripe and moan about how ahrd he works all day and how I don't understand and he has the right to be lazy, and well sure he does but I can not sit in a house all day every day doing nothing it drives me crazy. He also has this big list of things he wants but never once has he said "hey babe what would you like ?" but he sure as hell can complain how he hasn't gotten his carhartt or beanie yet and how he wants the ps4 nd I should get it for him for christmas -_-.
Ugh ok sorry rant over.. I mis riding hate my town and am frustrated with my life :(