I'm talking about growing up and accepting the way you look. Not that there is anything wrong with me and I fully believe perfection is in the eye of the beholder. If you think you're beautiful, you are and personality trumps all looks. (again personal opinion). But In the past year and a half I've realized I don't try to "look good" when I'm out and about.
When I was in middle school I wore make up to hide my acne, then I added dark eyeliner and eye shadow when I went through my goth phase. Then In high school I came out of goth and went over the top glam and crazy hair colors for a couple years. That was a disaster. Finally I mellowed down into cover up to even my skin tones and some eye liner and chap stick or lip gloss whichever one happened to be in my pocket. I also let my hair grow back out to blond. That stayed through first year of college and when I turned 20 I changed my eyeliner to a dark brown thin line instead of jet black and thick, I'm told it brings my blue eyes? Whatever works I guess.
Within the past year and a half, since I was 20 I've noticed I just don't care about looking good anymore. I used to put on make up to go to safeway at 2 in the morning to get yogurt!!! I used to go home from whatever barn I was at and change into nice clean clothes and redo my face before going out to do whatever silly thing I had to do. It was rare I had an occasion where I actually should have dressed up and looked good but I did it anyway. Because I really cared how I looked it was almost like I needed that public approval of " look at me I'm pretty" which in retro spec was a pretty snobby way to think.
Then I went out the whole day without make up, I was in a hurry. Just brushed my hair threw on some sweats and a t shirt and left the house. When I got home I realized it didn't look bad at all, actually natural looked better for me. I've since gone to jeans and a t shirt, most of the time in muck boots too since I work at two barns and any arrans are done on the way to or from work. Unless I have a horrible acne break out I might run a light concealer coat over my face but that's as far as it goes. Now I'm in the mindset "I'm taking a shower sometime later why waste the make up now?" I think that's a good place for me.
I guess I've just realized my personality gets more attention than my looks, and I'm not above average by any means. I have my good and bad days but I really don't care anymore. My horse and students aren't going to judge me based on my looks. I don't get up anymore and spend an hour to look perfect anymore, my boyfriend loves it because we can leave the house faster. Haha. I think I've finally grown out of make up. Granted if the situation calls for it I'll pull it out of the box and paint my face but other than that it's not important to "be pretty" anymore. Since I haven't been wearing make up my skin has looked more healthy and that's just awesome.
Just had to get that out.
Oh and a tip for skin care. Those big red acne zits that hurt really bad. Honey and aspirin masks work wonders!!!! There's a thousand recipes online for them and they reduce size and swelling and redness in just a few minutes!
Ps: sorry for any spelling mistakes. It's late.