Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: State of Confusion (SC)
Back again, laughing! Tiny, you borrow anything you like!
Dr. Finch, I think I'll pass...EEEWwwwwwww
Dreamcatcher, I quite agree! My husband is wonderful. I really don't know if I'll ever see Big again, but I'm assuming I will. Jim thinks a lot before he makes a decision and he's determined that whatever decision is made about Big...it will be my decision and one that I won't second guess myself about later and beat myself up over. (thats a grammatical hot mess) So Big is safe for now.
Part of the puzzle is that this is so unlike Big. He's always been an in your face, make me, kind of horse and very opinionated. When I first got him 7 or 8 years ago, he was a total challenge. Not a mean bone in his body, but willful and the kind of horse that will test you to the max before he's going to give you any kind of trust. We've conquered his cranky biting, nipping..He learned that there was no way he could intimidate me and I wouldn't put up with anything from him. He crowhopped and bucked a little when frustrated, and he learned that it didn't do him any good...I stayed on and he worked harder. He turned into a horse that I really felt safe on. He was INCREDIBLY brave and would take the lead when other horses balked. Iridehorses got on him once and asked me why I didn't sell him and get a decent horse! LOL... but even he came around and said that Big was perfect for me! And I have to admit that part of me was sort of proud of the fact that I rode him when others (having witnessed some of our disagreements) wouldn't get on him. He never did anything to put me in danger: after 7-8 years, we were a team. I knew exactly how he would react in any situation. So this is a total mystery. I can only think that maybe the cancer spread somewhere else in his body or went to his brain.
Whether it's the cancer or just his behavior, no one (If I have any say in it) will ever ride him again. He went with no warning from walking down a trail, to rodeo bronc to quietly grazing horse in about the time it would take you to toss aside a kleenex. It was just totally bizarre.
I'm not a complete idiot--there are parts missing!
What you have become is the price you paid to get what you used to want.