Thanks! I wouldn't want anyone to think that I'm not following the Doctor's orders. This wreck made a big impression on me. I'm doing as I'm told! October may be unrealistic given the breaks and cracks, but you have to have a goal. AND...the longer I stay off the back of a horse, the harder it will be to climb on. My imagination is just too vivid.
No matter what happens to Big, I will never ride him again. Never. So, I WILL get another horse, but I'm going to take my sweet time doing it. Big was a challenge and he taught me a lot. Got to go...I'll be back.
I'm so glad to see you on the forum and obviously getting better. I'm also glad to see that you have determined not to let Mr. Big have a crack at finishing you off. Even if you find a reason not to put him down, let someone else figure out the behavioural stuff.
Life is just too short to deal with a horse that just won't get with the program! Spoken from one who has just been there, done that, minus the severe injuries.
Your husband sounds like a big dream, very understanding. Mine is very sweet and kind and I know very well that if Mr. Big was my horse and hurt me like you, that horse would not be there when I got home. There might be a new mound in the back pasture but MB would not be in his stall. I'm also thinking that DH would not have involved a vet, more like a 45.
Back again, laughing! Tiny, you borrow anything you like!
Dr. Finch, I think I'll pass...EEEWwwwwwww
Dreamcatcher, I quite agree! My husband is wonderful. I really don't know if I'll ever see Big again, but I'm assuming I will. Jim thinks a lot before he makes a decision and he's determined that whatever decision is made about Big...it will be my decision and one that I won't second guess myself about later and beat myself up over. (thats a grammatical hot mess) So Big is safe for now.
Part of the puzzle is that this is so unlike Big. He's always been an in your face, make me, kind of horse and very opinionated. When I first got him 7 or 8 years ago, he was a total challenge. Not a mean bone in his body, but willful and the kind of horse that will test you to the max before he's going to give you any kind of trust. We've conquered his cranky biting, nipping..He learned that there was no way he could intimidate me and I wouldn't put up with anything from him. He crowhopped and bucked a little when frustrated, and he learned that it didn't do him any good...I stayed on and he worked harder. He turned into a horse that I really felt safe on. He was INCREDIBLY brave and would take the lead when other horses balked. Iridehorses got on him once and asked me why I didn't sell him and get a decent horse! LOL... but even he came around and said that Big was perfect for me! And I have to admit that part of me was sort of proud of the fact that I rode him when others (having witnessed some of our disagreements) wouldn't get on him. He never did anything to put me in danger: after 7-8 years, we were a team. I knew exactly how he would react in any situation. So this is a total mystery. I can only think that maybe the cancer spread somewhere else in his body or went to his brain.
Whether it's the cancer or just his behavior, no one (If I have any say in it) will ever ride him again. He went with no warning from walking down a trail, to rodeo bronc to quietly grazing horse in about the time it would take you to toss aside a kleenex. It was just totally bizarre.
I totally understand your decision, whether you put him down or not, it's your call and I get it, either way. LOL! I just know what would happen here, hubby is not so understanding. For one thing, if I were in your hospital bed, he'd have to deal with the stallions and foals and that's just something that would p*ss him off right from the jump! ROFL! So Big wouldn't be on his good books for that alone, the extra work and hurting me a distant 3rd.
Keep on smilin' and I'm hoping your lung decides to cooperate. Those flail chests are a booger and realllly cause breathing difficulties til they heal. Just think how much fun you're going to have walking into a restaurant all black & blue and green and purple......HAH!!! People will really wonder what you've been up to, or what your hubby has been!