help with a suffering family member
Hi guys, if this is too "dark" or something, feel free to move/delete it. But after dealing with this situation for months now (and with issues extending from and also leading up to the situation my whole life) I need advice in a pretty bad way.
I've always been the "healthy" one in the family, no major illnesses, injuries etc. A lot of times from my family I get the "you're so lucky, all of us are suffering and you're totally fine!" And in LARGE part, by suffering I mean with mental illness. I do not want to go into detail (only have told at most TWO people in my life the story and only one person the full "nitty gritty" grimy details of everything that's transpired.) but the reason I write this thread is because the mental disease a majority of my family is stricken with has come to a head with my sister. She's always suffered from depression, and when I was a few years younger began cutting herself stemming from, as best as I can ascertain, rejection at school. The rejection has long since passed, she has friends etc and for awhile the cutting stopped. At least that time, there was a sort of a "reason" why she was hurting herself.
Now though, its begun again, worse, and I can't find the reason. At first, (a few weeks ago) I thought it was just a couple cuts on her arms (bad but not really mutilation yet) well I see a lot of her "tools" in the bathroom and they all have blood on them plus the other day I saw her legs and they are ravaged. It's so much worse than I thought, which is what prompted this thread. I'm going to tell my dad about this but I feel like I'm betraying her, even though she doesn't know I know, and I'm scared the family finding out will drive her to even more/worse self harm?
I told my boyfriend about it because I needed someone to talk to (he's my best friend, known my family for years and close to my sister as well) and I also just feel sick I'm burdening him with all the "gory" details.
In extent, I'm mad. I know it's awful because self harm is a disease like anything else and God, after all this I respect its power to ravage someone. But it's so hard to deal with this on my own and know that if something happened to her, it would be my fault since i'm the only "healthy" one that knows. Ugh.
Any advice? Will telling someone hurt her more? Has anyone else expierenced this?