Hi! Most of us feel this way. It is absolutely normal and it is because we are human beings. Money, I find is the monkey on our backs and I am by no means perfect but inspiration and hope come for me in the margins sometimes unexpectedly, and not so much in the mainstream-heck, here we are in an age of technology and look how much we still have a passion for horses. We are full of contradictions. After coming home from being abroad for many years, it is the small things that I enjoy and the seemingly small things that we have on a daily basis that we take so much for granted, being able to have a glass of fresh water from a tap, being able to enjoy a meal or have a nice cup of coffee, having an ordinary conversation with people I feel comfortable with. I love the change of weather or the sound of rain. Just being able to have water. There was time I was feeling very very down and then I watched a documentary about Haiti. I wasn't down after that. Sometimes if I listen to the radio or other forms of media and I listen to the idiocy about the economy and the politics it can get to me, that's when I know I must unplug and step away from it. Sometimes it can seem like everyone is somehow doing "better" than you are but that's only a perception and not I find usually a truth. I think things will change. I also believe in Karma. Today, I rode a wonderful horse in the cool, crisp air with nice people. The people were making jokes in the barn, the dogs were being silly and the horse was energetic,did some really nice dressage movements. Live life in the moment. Here's a thought-go on YouTube and look up Finding Joe (about Joseph Campbell-it's a documentary)and maybe look up Alan Watts-What do you desire? It's very thought provoking. Carpe Diem! Keep riding. . .