I had a pretty deep and philosphical epiphany yesterday.
My littlest had to drink some tea yesterday. I am a budding herbalist (excuse the pun) and we have NO medicine here, just herbs. So when my kids get sick, they get tea. Well, my youngest had a bad cough so I had made her some mullien tea, bitter stuff, even with honey (NEVER use sugar in herbal teas, messes up the healing properties, only sweeten with honey.) I noticed she would take a TINY sip, then gag and contort and 'bleuck', then do it all over again, over and over until the tea was gone, (and it wasn't even a full cup) sip by tiny, reactive sip. Later that day I had poured her some orange juice, her favorite beverage, and she gulped down a HUGE glass, gulp gulp gulp till it was gone and wanted more.
What I realised is I do the same thing with life. I gulp down the good stuff without knowin it, chug away and take for granted all the wonderful little things that abound. But when I have a little cup of sorrow, pain or hurt I microfocus on it, almost as tho I am savoring every morsel. And when I hafta drink the bad stuff, it seems like ALL that good stuff, those glasses and glasses of good stuff I chugged down never existed.