11-28-2013, 05:16 PM
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It all seems pretty simple to me as I read your posts.
I sincerely believe that you love him and that he is also your best friend.
I think it is great that you found him and I'm sure he is a wonderful (and fortunate) guy.
You can however love someone and want them to be in your life forever without feeling the need to marry them. It is not required to keep the two of you close.
The need to drink and be uninhibited is the most concerning thing you said in my opinion. I'm certain that it would crush you if the roles were reversed. You would be confused and hurt. Rightfully so.
I would just set the "marry" idea on the shelf for now and relax. There is absolutely nothing wrong with not wanting to be touched, but it obviously does not make for a great relationship of love. A new marriage is hard enough even when all goes well, but to start one with such a unresolved issue does not bode well.
I think you already knew the responses you would get, but you wanted to confirm your own thoughts and that was a wise thing to do.
I wish you the very best.