My dad was so... hurt. He... I can't even explain. He was in tears telling me. I've never seen my dad cry. He was in tears when he was telling me the last time he saw my brother and I before mom stormed out the door with us.
My dad said that my mom would always flaunt her new boobs and was so into guys. I told my mom I found out about her boob job ( from an old memory I had, and from photos... and the fact that she's 39 and still completely purky! ) My mom said the boob job was because when she lost weight she had like no boobs. But my dad said it was to flaunt... I was getting mad at my mom because she had lied to me all these years ( I had asked her before and she said they're natural ), but only because of what my dad said... Anyway, mom said I was too young to know and maybe I'm not ready to even know now ( because I was flipping out on her. Only because of what my dad told me... I saw old pictures of mom skinny in a bikini and she had boobs. ).
About the cheating, my mom and I were talking and I asked her what her first boyfriend's name was after she divorced dad and she said "Chris." Which was the name my dad said who she left him for. I asked my mom why her and chris ever broke up. She replied saying he was "an asswhole". I've never heard her swear at one of her ex boyfriends. Ever.
Anyway... it's been a year and my mom still doesn't know I know the truth. I've kept it a secret this long just as my dad made me promise. Sometimes I think bad of my mom because of what I know but there is two sides to a story. I want to ask mom about it so bad... I tried once but I started to feel sick. My dad holds grudges. BIG grudges. If I told my mom and my dad found out he probably wouldn't talk to me for a year. He really does hold grudges. But what I know is really starting to put me down... like I know this is unhealthy, to keep such a big secret. As you read earlier about my dad getting married without me knowing and trying for a kid ( my step mom got pregnant but had a miscarriage... she was an emotional wreck after that because she's obsessed with having a kid ), my family is messed up and I'm in the middle of it. My brother doesn't know about my mom's boob job or about the real reason behind the divorce. Though he a year older than me, he's very immature and could never handle the truth.
I'm asking... what should I do?! This secret is tugging at me and I hate thinking bad about my mom sometimes, because there is two sides to a story as I said. I'm sooo confused. If I told my mom she would tell my dad and my dad wouldn't talk to me for years ( trust me, he wouldn't. ).
My life is messed up. It really is. And I need advice.