Hickory67, thank you, I will most definitely check those out.
VanillaBean, I'm sorry I made you cry, and thank you so very much.
Sunny, that video is gorgeous, and so inspiring, thank you for sharing it with me.
HorseLovinLady, thank you for your support.
Lately, I have been listening to a lot of music by Demi Lovato, as she went through what I am going through, and she is my ultimate role model right now. Her song "Skyscraper" in particular has been helping me a lot:
Another one is "Fix a heart", but I don't have the video link right now.
Last night I went for my evaluation, and I am going to rehab for two nights to start off with, and they will see how it goes and if the time needs to be increased. They told me that what I am attempting to do will be very difficult, especially quiting the cutting. I'm very shaky, which I was told is normal, it's my desire to cut, but not being able to do is actually having a negative effect on my body, as I have been doing it for so long. I'm restless and can't sit still, and even though I'm trying really hard, I can't make myself eat. They say that this is also normal.
My therapist got me talking about my hobbies and things I like to do, and he was thrilled when I mentioned my horses, and encouraged me to spend as much time as possible with them, as they will most definetely help me, but I must stay away from the fences and other objects that I may cut myself on (I have done that in the past.) My instructors have been informed, and are going to help me through this too, and keep an eye on me when I am at the barn.
I also mentioned to him I like to do photo edits, and listening to Demi Lovato, so he suggested that I use them both to help me, as an outlet for my emotions, which I have done by putting lyrics of her songs onto photos, which are shared at the bottom of this post. I also told him about this Forum, and the support I am getting, which he is also happy about. He was very surprised but thrilled when I told him how I told my story on here. He said that admitting that I have a problem is the first step to overcoming it, which is true, as I have spent the past years in denial that what I was doing was a problem.
I just want to thank everyone so much for supporting me, and I hope you all continue to do so as time goes on, as I will need it so much. I really appreciate it!
Here are the pics, they all belong to me, If you would like to know what song a lyric is from, I will happily tell you: Me 2 - Copy.jpg SDC13606214 - Copy.jpg SDC136321111 - Copy.jpg SDC1363410024 - Copy.jpg