Girl- you are so very brave for sharing all this. I checked out your photos-you are a lovely young lady. These kids in your high school will mean nothing in your future life. I am sorry you let them affect you so much. I went through school pretty much as a loner & since I never got along w/kids-i made the decision to never have any of my own. I have had a horse (or more) since I could work-kept them through thick & thin. But-I retired at the end of last year, bought & moved to a sweet little ranch. Then my husband had to have a life-saving surgery-(no insurance & he hasn't worked for over 3 years)-so yesterday I gave my horses away to a family that can support them. I am devastated, & can really relate to what you are feeling. Be strong-stay independent & get horses back in your life as soon as you can. Rejoice in a good day or having good times-we never know what might be lurking just around the corner.