10-10-2010, 05:09 AM
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Life isn't always fair.
I always had cheaper horses, and my current horse I got last week for free. The other day I bought a $20 bridle, and its sort of sad to see those $400 bridles. Its easy to say people have it worse than you do (they do of course) but the reality is different. Just because you know kids are starving in Africa doesn't make you feel better about what you don't have. I know that.
I'm 20 now and its strange. Looking back at the kids who went to Pony Club with me and such, many of those "rich kids" don't have horses anymore. I'm sure there are many "rich kids" who love horses, but in my experience many of them are born into a horsey family, and have nice horses, but it isn't really their passion. Then you look at the ones with the cheap horses and they're still riding. You probably have a driving passion which so many people lack - and its a good thing to have. You're learning everyday, you're making do. You are becoming adaptable and experienced.
I used to think I was pretty hard done by - I had a horse so I was lucky but I used to see all these people with horses that cost small fortunes, trucks and cars and goosenecks, lovely leather saddles etc. and I used to feel left out. I went back to my home town a couple of months ago and met up with this girl I was friends with at school. She used to come to events and help me, and I used to let her ride my horse.
Anyway she told me how much she had enjoyed coming out with me and brushing the horse, riding, caring for it. She said it had been a highlight of her childhood. She had always wanted a horse and her parents wouldn't even give her lessons. I realised that sure I didn't have everything, and my horse was a bit useless, but at least I had something.
Right now I am keeping my "free" horse at a friends property. They have absolutely lovely horses, brand new Kieffer saddles, practically everything. I feel pretty shabby with my Standardbred and Wintec saddle but I'm happy that I have him, and he might never be as good as their horses, but he's mine. I can make of him what I please.
There are always going to be people wealthier than you and poorer than you. Its something you just have to swallow and move on with.
But when you look back, its not the things you had that you remember, its they experiences, the things learned, the things you thought were beautiful.
There will always be people with more and people with less. You have to be happy in yourself.