So I am fully aware this may seem bratty or whatever I don't care haha
So I've had a rough time the entire time I've been in the horse world. Always had project bratty horses never had it easy ever. On Instagram today and found this girl who's parents bought her not one but two highly expensive (30 and 40 thousand dollars) horses. I've been very frustrated not being able to get the horse I want which is 1750 I don't need a 10,000 dollar horse sure it's be nice to work on myself since I've never had one very well trained horse ever but I know I can't afford that. It's just really frustrating seeing these girls handed these 1D horses when I'm struggling to find a prospect in my price range :(.
Yup I sound whiney but when you've had lousy trainers, green, badly trained horses your entire 19 yrs it gets discouraging. My trainer now lends me her horses but it's not the same I love her for it and am thankful I just want my own well trained horse I can atleast win occasionally on just to give me that push to keep going. I am getting discouraged olive riding and barrel racing it's my true passion but I hate always having the projects and having to fix other peoples screw ups, every time it seemed like I found a good one it was ripped from my hands or as soon as I felt like I was getting somewhere which is why I won't lease anymore unless I'm leasing a fully trained barrel horse I'm tired of putting time in to have it shoved in my face.