Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Alberta, Canada
• Horses: 0
Hun, you need to be with people at a time like this. I am oh so sorry you're going through a heartbreak like this - I know how much it hurts. You aren't alone, and you aren't the only one who has felt the way you do.
I have had my heart broken once, by my first love (first for many things actually.) I got through it by surrounding myself with girlfriends and watching Friends and Grey's Anatomy for hours on end while eating ice cream. I remember crying for weeks on end, and feeling like I would never feel whole again. I remember feeling like part of my heart had been ripped out, and sometimes I cried just to feel something again.
Then one day I didn't think about him for an hour. Then another day I didn't think about him for half a day. Then a whole day went by and I didn't think of him.
Sometimes he pops up in my mind.... and I remember the good times that we had... but I also remember the bad times. The times that I felt worthless to him.
WTAS, I went back and read a few of your posts, and I have to say that I for one am happy for you that he's out of your life. At least for now.
Who knows, maybe he'll grow up and you two will end up together, but I think, from a completely outsider's point of view, that a lot of things have to change before that happens. Maybe, without you, he'll realize how good a girl you are, and what he's missing. But, here's my witchy side, I hope when that happens, you'll have found someone else, someone who treats you as you deserve to be treated.
The last thing I have to say is that no person is worth killing yourself over. You have to love yourself and accept yourself as you are - if you don't, how is everyone else supposed to?
*hugs* hun, you are an amazing woman that has so much to offer the world, and all your friends and the lucky men who get to share their lives with you - sometime soon, you'll find the one who you want to share the rest of your life with.
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