I haven't been able to proscess it all yet, I'm flying hone from my trip in europe tomorrow morning, and going directly to another friends house to help get things all ready for the funeraul and be there for his sister who I'm very close to.
Our small community is very strong, well connected and we will celebrate his life instead of grieving it.
It's all so very tragic though, I found out the morning it happened and haunt cried yet, I know I'll loose it when I walk in the front door to my families house to help with everything tomorrow night after getting off the 9 hour flight.
I feel sick to my stomach literally, iv lost now three people, all who seemed like family to me, one being acutaly my cousin....all to suicide.
I'm just lost...sad, hurting and angry.
Felt like posting and sharing the video might help me feel better....I don't know.