So far, 5 people have asked me when I'm going to get married. My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 3 years now, and the thought of marriage gives me mixed emotions. On one hand, it excites me. I love Nate very much, and he is definitely the one. I couldn't imagine my life without him by my side.
On the other hand, it scares the crap out of me. Simply because I am turning 18 soon, and I will be moving out of my parents' home and going back to my hometown. Turning 18 is scary enough as it is..I don't think that I could throw marriage into the equation so soon. It's just so much responsibility.The thought of paper work, legal documents, taxes, etc. scares me out of my mind. So, I think I should get a handle on being "grown up" first before I even think about marriage. Plus, Nate is joining the military in a few weeks anyway, so I'd rather wait until he's out of active duty before we get married. That gives me so much more time to get my priorities straight and start planning the wedding.
I guess you could say that we are "engaged to be engaged". I have a beautiful promise ring that he gave me last year, and I only take it off when I swim or take a shower. I just love it so much. It has so much meaning behind it. <3
We've talked about marriage a lot, but he hasn't officially proposed yet. My mom has even asked me if we were thinking about getting married.
I just don't know what to tell them. I guess I should be posting this on Facebook, so my family and friends can see it. Who knows? Maybe I will. But I think that I just need to type it out and post it on here so I can get it out of my head & try to make people understand how I feel.