May... be on here less

As long as your ok an well.
So keep typeing once in a while ok.
Don't be a stranger chat soon ok.
The screens all ways open here lmsao all the best mick xxx

Now there's a problem with my feet. Poor support and poor quality flats that literally give me bruises and cut up my feet. Did I mention that I SIT all day?! So how the hell (pardon me) is that happening?!

Also I need to vent. No one understand so far whom I've spoken to.

Someone told my father they were excited to meet me. I get there, and they don't even say HI. I say hi and they do everything they can to jet off. They ignore me in convos, they make me feel inferior. And I'm a pretty damn good and lovely person. I don't deserve to feel inferior.. no one does!

But it's gotten me down, that plus shoe issues plus my feet cramps.

Just I'm in need of a good cry. I know I'm pretty, I'm smart, and kind. But this person just makes me feel like I don't matter and I'm not worth squat.

In fact there's this party on Sat night that I was invited to (for older peeps.. dancing and stuff but despite being under the cap age they want me there apparently) but since she's going I just don't want to go at all. I want to skip it out and just stay at home and chill.

Then I come on here to.. idk.. find some sort of comfort and I just.. I'm swamped with these threads and I just don't find any fun in answering them when I'm so ruddy. I just want to look at pretty pictures and that's about it :/

I guess I'm just being overly emotional but honestly I can't help it. If I think highly of myself I feel like I'm being conceited. If I think lowly of myself then I feel like ****. I can't find any relief.

So I won't be active for now.. just kind of popping on and off for a bit.

I've been on a lot less lately too (too much hauling water and trying to keep everyone alive in the drought = pooped lockwood) and find it hard to catch up on the threads too.

As for the rant, Skye... no one can make you feel inferior unless you let them. You have much to be confident and proud of and no, that does not make you conceited, just real.
Based on the description, this other person sounds plain and simple jealous so don't let her problem and insecurity become your problem or insecurity.
While most here do not know each other in person, you are well loved here by many...... and it is because of who you are on the inside since we can't all see one another.
This other person's opinion (or actions) matter not.

Of course there is a small chance you could be some kind of an ogre in real life who is a great actress on here, but I doubt it.
Sorry to hear about the feet. Sounds like foot soaks and a massage (by a hot Maori) are in order.

Hear, hear, Lockwood!! *raises glass of juice*
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Take care of your self, LOL, I'm totally there with you with needing a good cry, in fact been doing a bunch of that today, hopefully a good leak will do the job, let some of the pressure out, sometimes us girls just have to do that.

Pooh bah on the person that made you feel bad, sky. Off w their head!

Get a pair of comfy stylish Clark shoes for your tootsies....
And whatever you are doing when you are away from the computer...kick a** and take names! Good luck with it all!

Yeah I appreciate all of the support.

Hiya thanks for replying well your a rolemodel and like some one said your a very liked person in deed and that's from people who don't know you and have never met you in person.
From my point of vew looking in your on a high pedastall and a role model on here.
So don't put your self down ok.
Well I supose I should take a leaf out of my own book on that one.
When you said you were a little down I can't rember your string that proves that your human like us.
Ok that's a lot of my waffle iv got to go to tricky now I have 2 rest days now no on call im free for 2 days.
Take care ok and have a nice day.

Nah I'm not a rolemodel haha, just an avid horse lover.

Man I heard about Pat.. what a crazy morning for her :( Hope she recovers without too much trouble. Probably lots of gradual rehab.

Now some updates..

I survived my first week of work. I'm very tired and I must know at least 50 people.. which it's quite fun remembering their names hehe.

Just going to creep about the forum and reply to a few posts. I miss being on here but I'm just so exhausted. Tomorrow we're going exploring so we'll see how that goes.

Hope everyone is well! Prayers for Pat

Sky, you have no idea how humbling it is to know that in the midst of all your turmoil, you took the time to think of me. PLEASE check in here as much as you can. You're a fountain of kindness and good sense. This forum would be a colder place without you. I've never seen you babble on here and don't let anyone make you feel less than the competent, capable, kind person you are. We appreciate you and we don't want to miss you.... I know you're busy, but come here when you can. We'll all be glad to see you whenever you can get here!