Okay so me and my mom had a really long talk outside. It was about the death of my old trainers 5 year old family member. It happened about a year ago but I never really got out my real feelings...until now. I lost it outside, crying. Because I loved her so much. And now im really upset and sad. Im scared im going to loose someone else close to me. She wasnt supposed to die, it was a horrible accident. I miss her so much. And now I need my horse fourm friends to cheer me up.