Today was a rough day.
Dad passed away a little after 4am, after getting to see his two other sons from CO and have them say their good byes and be there with him.
I am of course grieving and sad and it hasn't sun in and I feel numb yet am in physical pain like I have never experienced.
I got to say my good byes, say I love you and feel really good that I was able to do that when he was in a place that he could hear me and tell me he loves me back. I will always cherish that in my heart for as long as I live.
Because I am so tired I am just going to copy down what I out on Facebook since all my family and friends there knew also what was going on instead of trying to re write it and make sense of it all over again.
Thanks for you support, means so much to me.
He is now in a better place where I know I can talk to him anytime even if I don't hear him answer right away.
Never felt so comforted by the sound of a voice besides my mom. I'm so thankful to have such a caring loving new family members.
I am looking forward to future good times and many many memories with brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews, aunts and even a grandfather, most who even knew me before I was adopted.
Love you guys so much, thank you for helping me figure out who I am and where I come from.
I also want to thank my amazing mom who has guided me to be the person I am today, to be strong, positive and hopeful throughout the 20 years of her raising me I would be nothing, I owe all I am to her and she stands by me supporting me through this very rough time.
Thank you to all who have called, texted, held me when iv been at my worst recently and simply just talked to me just to get me talking and not hold it all in. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers none of you have gone un noticed.
This is just a new chapter in my life. To become more of an adult and learn who I am an grow closer to many new family members.
This will only make me stronger and wiser of a person and that's what my dad would want.
One day at a time. Doing things that make me happy and family proud.
Love all of you so much!! —