I just got the dreaded call. My granpaw had a stroke today. They don't know when he had it, but he was found at around 4pm..He had a artery clog in his neck, and we don't know how long he sat there before he was found. He is paralyzed on one side of his body, and he has lost his speech. The doctors say that he is aware of what is going on around him.
I'm hurt and angry at the same time. I don't know what to do. I'm sitting in my bathroom bawling my eyes out because I don't want my fiance to see me. I feel stupid. I'm angry because he sat there in the chair no telling how long paralyzed and drooling.
I have never lost anyone close to me, and I don't think I am ready.
I'm trying to remember all the good times so maybe I can compose myself before I come out of the bathroom. He used to raise beagles, and I always made him name the puppies after me. He would bring in the sick ones and we would stay up all night nursing them and keeping them warm. I would go every summer when I was a little girl and spend the summer with him. We would go on road trips and he would feed me so much candy I would get sick every time.
I just don't know what to do. I'm going to make the 4 hour trip and go see him Sunday. Buit I dn't want to walk in and turn onto a baby and him see me cry
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