So, here's the backstory -
I had a very small, very quick wedding when I married my beloved husband of (now) 5 years.
Then, he was a Marine, and was going to deploy in September of 2007. In February of 2007, we knew we wanted to marry each other. It was such an immense love that has only grown over the years.
A very real fear in our lives then was that he would not make it back home. My husband knew he was going to be in an incredibly dangerous situation and was very literally afraid for his life.
We decided to be married before he deployed. I know this sounds dramatic, but if he were to die, he wanted to die as my husband, not my boyfriend.
We were also in a long distance relationship at the time, living 17 hours apart. So he checked with his command for the nearest 3 day weekend so we could meet halfway and tie the knot.
That Saturday happened to be July 7th - 7/7/07
We were married in his mom's backyard, I wore a $30 dress from Ross, the cake was last minute and my M.I.L. Picked up a $15 rose bouquet from costco. It was 112' degrees in Bakersfield and the only people in my family that could make it on such short notice were my mom and step dad.
We had a one night honeymoon in a nice hotel, and the next day I had to get back on a bus to northern Ca while he went back to south to camp Pendleton. We didn't see each other for another 3 weeks, waiting til we could afford an apartment. When I did move down, we had 3 days together before he had to leave on a field operation for 2 weeks. The next 2 months were like that, scattered trainings where he would be gone for days or weeks, until he deployed for 7 months. I got to talk to him about 4 times on the phone during that 7 month time, and emails about once a week.
We have now been married for 5 years, and our love has grown stronger and stronger over the years. I love him more today than I did yesterday, and we have a beautiful 1 year old baby boy.
So, our plan was always to have a 'big wedding'... I wish I had pictures to put on the wall, a beautiful dress, and all of our family to share the celebration with. All the dreams a little girl has about her wedding. I do have the man of my dreams, and I feel so selfish for wanting to have a 'real' wedding. It's too late now. Even if I wanted to, we don't have the money to do one anyway. My husband is going to school, we have a baby...
I think about doing a 'vow renewal' but it's just not the same. I want a dress and bridesmaids and flowers and to cut the cake and decorations that represent us and just.. I just want a wedding.
I feel so selfish for wanting that.
Can I essentially.. re do our wedding? Maybe on our 7th anniversary? Can I get a pretty white dress? Should it be like an anniversary party? Or a vow renewal?
Here are the best pictures I have from our wedding.
I have about 10 total.