My hands are all bloody. Well not right now because I washed it off. Roebuck blood from a one years old little fella. I hope he dies soon.
I'm sounding horribly cruel now, am I not? Still it is true; I wrestled and strangeled a roebuck and I wish for it to die...'
We found it on the road, it was hit by a car. (Maybe you see where I'm going at?) but it didn't die. We thought it was dead when we drove past, but turned around to move it out of the way, it was in the middle of a 4 laned road, 90km/h. And then it blinked.. My (my friend) noticed first, I didn't believe her. But then I saw it too, and it moved its head.. we called 112 (swedish 911), got connected to the police who called a hunter.
We decided to stay and wait since the cars drove like crazy (even when we stood there by the barrier (2 lanes at one direction and 2 at the other with wires between them) with our car flashing warning lights on one side and we stood on the other, waving with flashlights..). We didn't want a car to run over his legs or anything..
Then the deer woke up a bit more. We tried to shield it's eyes but eventually it got up. I tried to hold it down the best I could, and managed to keep it calm in the start. When it was already standing, we decided to try and get it across the two lanes, when no cars were there.. My pushed it's rear and I pulled in the front, halfway My had to wave for a car to slow down and I kinda panicked and pulled the deer over to the ditch on the other side.. safe at least; the cars would move away from our flashing car.
It lied down and I held it, trying to keep it calm despite all cars, lights and trucks there, drivig past. It tried to raise a few times but then I could hold it down gently. But after a while I think the chock left it and it started struggeling.. 4 or 5 times I got it down and held it, but finally it ran off. >< At some point two other women came to keep us company, but there wasn't much to do.
After a while the hunter came, but he had to go get his dog since he had expected a lying deer, not one he had to track down.
I really wish it had stayed, and that everything had run smoothly so it could have been put down.. now it has suffered for over an hour, I don't know how long it was there when we came, or how long it will take to find it. I'm quite sure it has a broken leg, it was bent in a weird angle when it walked, and probably internal damages since it was bleeding from the mouth and nose. We had waited for over an hour..
If I had just held on a bit tighter and hadn't let go.. or something.. :( It feels like it's my fault it got away and has to suffer more than necessary...
And why can't people call the police or 112 as they should when they hit a wild animal!? Why can't they make sure it get's put down properly instead of lying halfdead on the road!?
(if you wonder why I didn't take it to the vet, even tho we probably could have gotten it into the car, it's because we don't have free vets here, they're very expencive. If I hadn't had an insurance on my horse, I wouldn't be able to afford anything that involved one night at the vets... so taking the deer there wold cost too much, and with internal injuries and stress, it would probably die anyway..)
I feel cold and a bit shocked, this isn't what I expect when I'm going out to eat dinner..