Hero, as you know my brother took his life 5 years ago. My heart still aches for him. Holidays will never be the same without him. My brother suffered from depression and bipolar disorder. His girlfriend at the time, who was an RN had convinced him he didn't need to take his Zoloft, it was just a "poison"!!! I am also a nurse and she gives nurses a bad name!! This is all I will say about her, because as I'm sure you can imagine I have nothing good to say about her!!
I also lost a very close friend 9 years ago to carbon monoxide poisoning. He read his boys a bed time story, tucked them in, kissed his wife good night and told her he had some work to do. He went downstairs paid the bills, caught everything up to date, then went to the garage turned on the car and sat in it and feel asleep. He never woke up.
He had called me numerous times months before and told me his wife ( my good friend) was very depressed and I needed to call her and check on her, of course I would and she would seem fine. He had me check on her at least 5 or 6 times in 2 months (they lived in Wisconsin and I lived in Missouri at the time). We would normally talk 1 or 2 times a month, our kids were small and we were busy. But we now know he was preparing for his suicide. He made made sure I was ready to care for her. He hid letters for her around the house, she didn't find all of them until she moved a few years later. We were all in the medical field, so he knew exactly what to say to keep everyone thinking he was OK, but he was honest in the letters. That was very hard for her. If he would have been honest before, maybe he would still be here.
Sorry this is so long, I just wanted to share another story for you Hero.
I'm still here for you if you need anything.
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