..when you suddenly realize and appreciate things.
I'll try not to make this to overly cheesy, but I felt like sharing.
This past week (my birthday week no less) has been very rough. My horses, boyfriend, friends, family relations just turned upside down and backwards all at the same time, and I've been at a loss as to how to deal with it. I've been overwhelmed and upset all week, crying much more than i've ever cried in a seven day span, its just been hard.
Despite my complete loss as to how to make things better, as I was sitting in my basement just a few minutes ago, curled up in a blanket and just generally feeling sorry for myself with the curtains drawn, the wind was blowing the blinds, so I opened them to take a look out. It was a nice, clear evening and I decided to halt my pity party for a moment to step out into the yard and get some fresh air.
I stood out there and then walked around my yard, appreciating the grass and the cool breeze and my cat rolling around on the concrete and the dog eating his dinner by his deck in the neighbors yard. It was peaceful, and for the first time in the whole entire week I geniunely thought things might end up okay and that I can get through these situations I'm currently faced with.
So, my point is, for those struggling, It's okay, things will get better, and theres a whole world out there with endless possiblities ready to welcome you back in even if you seem lost now. As is said; "this too shall pass" and "life isnt about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain." :)
Don't know if anyone will read this, but it helped to post it. Thanks guys.