torn...a rant sort of

Does anyone here ever feel like horses are one love and something else (not a guy/girl) is another love, but if you go after horses you will loose the other thing that is part of you, and if you go after this other thing you will loose horses?
My other love is music, I play the viola, and im a sophmore in high school, people are always asking me if im going to go to college with a scolarship from my music, but I don't know if I want to major in music in college, I don't know what I want to do in college, or for the rest of my life for that matter, I figure I have about two and a half years to figure it out but everyone is pushing and pushing especially my mother who I don't live with, I guess she wants to see me not end up like her with a child before graduating from high school and to have a good job and be happy but geez she pushes way to much, and I don't even live with her!
Other people that push are people at school, I have a class every other wednesday where I can go and look up on my grades get some extra work done but sometimes that class has these stupid evaluations where you say what you want to be and then they tell you what classes you need so you can go to college and pursue your desired life style, I of course can't answer some of these questions and they get that stern face and say 'you need to decide you only have a few years left to decide if you don't decide soon...'blah blah blah its the normal pep talk on the future and life isnt as fair as everyone thinks it is,
Its frustrating, why do some adults think that teenagers are all immature and don't give a hoot about anything but themselves and they feel like they have to lay out our clothes like we are still in kindergarten(mind you I said some adults not all) well reading back to myself I sound pretty immature complaining about it, so I guess I just stuck my foot in my mouth lol
Well I feel a little better thanks for reading *throws cookie for reading*
Good night guys!

Yes, you do have time to decide what you would like to major in for college. And if you can play an instrument good enough for a scholarship
You must be good. So you have choises.

Remember this though. If people didn't care about you they would not
Try and push you. Just tell your mom you love her and not to worry so much. She just wants the best for you.

If your school grades are good don't stress about college now, enjoy
High school.

Honey, it is normal to be undecided. Who can decide their entire future at 15, 16, 17 y/o? I changed my major several times in college.

The best tip I could give you is to keep an eye on employment - if you have a good job you can afford to do other things, be it go back to school, get another horse ( or have the $$ to keep/get one), do your "other" love part time. Also, just because you are good at something does not mean you love it, does it? Most of us like things that come easily to us. But we get great pleasure out of completing the things that are hard for us.

What other interest do you have now, or think you might get interested ion? Sometimes you can combine stuff..... ok ... music, horses ....and...? Big or small... what else?

I wouldnt go by those job evaluations... mine told me that I should be a logger (ya cause that is a really easy job to get into)

I would just keep researching different jobs... doing pros and cons. I changed my major 3 times before finally graduating college (not to advise that... it gets spendy, lol). Just keep your grades up and you wont have a problem getting into most schools.

i understand that, everytime I talk to her she will ask about music and ill tell her I just did a concert or got back from a trip or something and she'll ask how it was and all that then before we move on to the next topic she'll say 'keep practicing so you can get that scolarship and go to college" sometimes I feel like she wants the scolarship more than I do, I've tried telling her im not sure I want to major in music and then she sounds all upset:roll: I think she mostly pushes for this because she thinks its the only good thing she has ever done for me that and giving me up to my grandparents, but music is the only thing she actually saw through, she helped buy my instrument, the one I play on now, she didnt make me beg to play and it was the one thing she fought my step dad on when he didnt want me to play music....i have a pretty complicated relationship with my mother...


i like astronomy...lol

Thanks everyone
Have a good night