torn...a rant sort of
does anyone here ever feel like horses are one love and something else (not a guy/girl) is another love, but if you go after horses you will loose the other thing that is part of you, and if you go after this other thing you will loose horses?
My other love is music, I play the viola, and im a sophmore in high school, people are always asking me if im going to go to college with a scolarship from my music, but I don't know if I want to major in music in college, I don't know what I want to do in college, or for the rest of my life for that matter, I figure I have about two and a half years to figure it out but everyone is pushing and pushing especially my mother who I don't live with, I guess she wants to see me not end up like her with a child before graduating from high school and to have a good job and be happy but geez she pushes way to much, and I don't even live with her!
Other people that push are people at school, I have a class every other wednesday where I can go and look up on my grades get some extra work done but sometimes that class has these stupid evaluations where you say what you want to be and then they tell you what classes you need so you can go to college and pursue your desired life style, I of course can't answer some of these questions and they get that stern face and say 'you need to decide you only have a few years left to decide if you don't decide soon...'blah blah blah its the normal pep talk on the future and life isnt as fair as everyone thinks it is,
Its frustrating, why do some adults think that teenagers are all immature and don't give a hoot about anything but themselves and they feel like they have to lay out our clothes like we are still in kindergarten(mind you I said some adults not all) well reading back to myself I sound pretty immature complaining about it, so I guess I just stuck my foot in my mouth lol
Well I feel a little better thanks for reading *throws cookie for reading*
Good night guys!
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