I just need to get this out in writing and hear other people's thoughts.
I attend community college right now. I will have my AA in journalism this May. Next fall, I am transferring to a state university. I am excited, which is great, because I tried to go off to college after I graduated and couldn't do it - just wasn't ready. But this past week, a whole bunch of decisions have cropped up and they really affect my life!
#1 - Housing
Originally, I was going to have a 2 bedroom townhouse that was pet friendly to myself on campus next fall. I have never been excited about dorm life - I like to sleep, people are loud and raucous, and I'm one of those people that just need my own space. Additionally, I have anxiety mostly with this phobia I have of throwing up. This anxiety was so bad during high school, but it has gotten to the point, through medication and counseling, where it is manageable most of the time. However, I still get pretty worked up when someone is sick in the household, and I hate feeling and having people see me that way. Which brings me to the other option:
I've gotten really close with this girl that rides at my stable. She attends this college I'm transferring to next fall and is getting an apartment with her friend. It's a 3 person apartment - everyone gets their own bedroom - and she wanted to know if I would like to live with them. It will be a lot cheaper than having my own place, obviously. I love this girl, and she's considerate, respectful, doesn't party, and goes to bed at a decent time. I don't know her friend, but I am willing to bet that she's a lot like her. Anyway, I have scheduled to see this apartment and meet this friend next Saturday. This apartment, I should mention, is also pet-friendly. The only thing that stops me is my anxiety. I know I will likely flip out if someone gets sick, and that is not a side of me I like revealing to anyone because it makes me feel like a crazy, and a lot of people aren't really that accepting of it. I haven't told my friend about this, and I will probably have to, but it just makes me uncomfortable talking about it because it's not a side of me I am proud of or like to share.
#2 - Internships - So, I'm starting to realize that a sophomore in college means I should probably start building my resume. There is a place in the same town that I go to school at that has had internships open before. It is unpaid but undoubtedly good experience. My problem is that I have a lot on my plate right now. I work 20-25 hours a week because I obsess over having a thriving bank account and worry that my horses will eat it away! I want to get a head start to making money so I can get my horses and my stable as soon as possible. And I want to stay out of debt. Plus, my job, a grocery store extraordinaire (I literally do EVERYTHING, but mostly cashier), is laid back, flexible, and is very low key, things I value right now as a college student. This summer, I want to try to make as much money as possible before I head off to school. I know I can get the greenhouse again this year at work, but working 9-6 doesn't exactly leave time for an internship. I plan on doing internships my junior and senior years, but should I start now or what? My journalism instructor said that while work experience is great, a grocery store doesn't have anything to do with journalism...obviously. But it brings in the money without stress. Ughh...I don't know what to do.
I'll just leave it at those two right now I think. But I worry too about what I'll do with my horses (the lamie, the oldie, and my new one). And about succeeding in journalism.
Any clues, guys?