First, my grandmother passed away April 5th the day she died my mom lost her job because the elderly lady she took care of went to live with her kids since mom couldn't be there. My mom has also been sick lost a lot of weight I FINALLY talk her into going to the doctor, they do a scope & find a tumor at the base of her esophagus it's blocking her esophagus so it is almost impossible for her to eat, food gets stuck and won't go down. So we find out it's cancer a type of lymphoma and although its slow growing and this type she could live another 20 or so years with the location and her inability to eat could cause her to starve to death Add to that that she owns a house that is in dire need of major repairs to be livable and no one wants to get off their a** and do the work to help her. I can't do it all, I've got a bad back and have carpal tunnel that flares up sometimes and I can't even pick up a coffee cup without using both hands or dropping it. I work a min wage job, the house I live in now I was sharing with my mom to ease the financial burden for us both now I am responsible for everything and it's more than I make in any given month. Rent is outrageous here for a minimum wage town & I am 70 miles away from any major town not that the job market is going to be much better there so commuting is out of the question. I applied for a low income apt. Only to get everything done and then them tell me the rent would still be the normal rate till I applied for some other type of assistance which will take 6 months or longer to get approved for..My mom is staying with my grandpa & has since grandma died, he's 86 and is running himself in the ground working all the time and then worrying about mom to, my aunt (her sister) is more interested in going through grandma's things to get what she wants & my cousin's things( which btw we had to get a protective order to keep her away from grandpa) because she is violent and bipolar she's stole his guns and hocked them at the pawn shop & has said many times she WILL get his house.
My idiot brother is a drug addict and is sitting in county jail totally unaware that any of this is going on because I refuse to have any contact with him, he should be going back to prison any time now( that's where he belongs really)
Anyhow the only good thing right now is 1. I do have a job even though it doesn't pay much and 2. The horses are all ok and soon we will have a spindly legged baby to entertain us till it's weaned and I sell it( I have no need for another one that's for sure)
SO with all the stress I really really need a break and a back massage!