If you don't know what it is you need - why would a random non-professional know? If you can't formulate what you need, how would they even know what you are asking for? If you just want to know someone cares...there is faith. which is a safe and strong bet.
I use to think about Princess Diana a lot. I mean, what was her problem? She couldn't be thankful for what she had? She could have had her pick of horses, the very best of instruction, tack, perfectly groomed riding paths, etc.,. Yet, she couldn't deal w her situation? Okey-dokey....I didn't have to walk a mile in her shoes...but I know if I had of, I would have made better use of it! :)
Itemize what you have to be thankful for, and be thankful.
I don't mean this in a unkind way, btw....I just mean you have to take responsibility for your own happiness.
Sometimes it's just that kind of thinking that annoys me the most, not to be unkind.
I can formulate what I need. I'm not asking for a diagnosis from my friends, or advice from them, but all I am looking for is for someone to let me chat about my day with and offer some kind of love and support. When you feel this insignificant, it helps so much when someone can say to you, "you'll be alright, I'm there for you". It doesn't have to be much more than that, then we can go on talking about shoes or whatever.
You have no idea what "making better use" of it means. The most insulting thing anyone can say to me is "you are a beautiful, intelligent, talented girl who has everything, so you have no reason to be unhappy". That is incredibly dismissive of what I am going through. Depression is an illness, but not something you can magically take a pill and get rid of, or wait 2 weeks like the flu.
Try to walk a mile in the shoes of a person whose chest feels like you're being ripped inside out every night. When all you want to do is feel normal, and desperately try anything to cheer yourself up. When all you crave is the sound of another person's voice just so you don't feel like you're alone in the universe. I am thankful for so many things in my life, things I don't even deserve. But I would give anything, do anything, just to be able to enjoy them and be happy. Instead I have so much guilt because I cannot magically make myself better. Because I can't be the perfect person everyone sees in me. And every day I put a smile on my face because I cannot bear to burden people with what I am going through. And every day I fight. I go get help. I recognize my own problems. Can you even fathom how humiliating I feel going to an anon group? Even though I know I'm going to get help, the fact that I have to admit to myself that I am an addict is one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life.
And all I ask is for someone to at least respond to a friendly hello from me. Sometimes I get so sick of being strong and being told "get used to being alone" I wanna just throw up.