Janna you are concentrating on the negatives of your life.
As another member has posted you have a lot of internal anger built up and that IS NOT healthy.
Your post sound hopeless and bitter. Very depressed.
As a therapist just from reading your post I see some very alarming signs. I might be wrong but if I were you I would difuse this anger now.
If not when you do move out the anger will follow you and then who will you be angry at but yourself?
Once again get out meet some friends, get a hobby, Relax and smile.
Life is full of happiness you do have to find though it won't fine you. Shalom